I'm "Forcing" Myself to Use My First Energy Of The Day for Myself

This morning I had to force myself to get out of bed. I really didn't want to get out of that warm, comfortable bed. I was so tired, the covers felt so heavy (actually, they were literally heavy - we just got a weighted blanket), and I hit the snooze button twice.

It was only two days ago that I heard, in one of my favorite podcasts, that you should never hit snooze, because that's essentially breaking at promise to yourself before you even open your eyes. Get out of your bed when you told yourself you would!

As I lay there, trying to force myself to move, I wondered if I was really going to break a promise to myself, already. And I did. A couple of times.

But eventually I got myself out of bed, and here's why: this morning time is the only time of day that I will have the space and the brain capacity to do what I want to do.

The rest of the day I will be doing things for other people. Taking care of my kids, getting work done for my customers, cooking for my family, answering texts and emails, and everything else the day will bring.

If I don't purposefully take the time to create some space for me to do things that I care about, then the space will not be there. End of story. Nobody is going to do that for me, and it's unfair of me to assume that they will. It's not their job to invest in my dreams, my ambitions, my hobbies, my interests. Those things are mine for a reason!

And here's the thing - after my kids go to bed, I actually have a couple of hours in the evening to do anything I want, unless I am purposefully hanging out with my husband. But in the evening hours, I have very little energy. I've already used most of it up. So if I try to use this time as my only time to build myself up, I am just feeding myself leftover crumbs! Nobody grows well fed on leftover crumbs. I will want to plop down on the couch and do nothing! I know this about myself. And I don't think it's worth the fight to try to will myself into being something that I am not! I am not energetic and motivated in the evening.

So I forced myself to get out of my bed at 5:30 am, armed with the energy I get from knowing that I get to do whatever I want right now! I get to enjoy some coffee, spend some time reading, or writing, or working on a hobby, or watching an inspiring video, or whatever it is that lights my heart on fire and brings me joy!

There is great fulfillment that comes from accomplishing something that builds you up and brings you joy, no matter how small it is. We were created with personal tastes and aspirations and hopes and dreams for a reason. We aren't machines. Thank goodness.

And now it's 6:45 am, and I've already read a chapter in my latest library check-out, written a blog post, enjoyed a cup of coffee (in peace and quiet!), and done my daily morning practice of writing my goals and aspirations. If I didn't climb out of bed and make that happen, it would not happen. *It would not happen.* Because it's my job to make it happen. No one else is responsible for that.